Wednesday, March 22, 2006
I think I've reached my breaking point. Shepherd is sleeping fine at night... 3 hours at a time, sometimes 4. So it's really not his fault. I just think the weeks upon weeks of sleep deprivation is finally getting to me. Last night, I got up to feed Shepherd, and when he wouldn't stay latched on (sometimes he's lazy), I felt like throwing him against the wall. So finally, when I was done feeding him, I handed him to Forrest and said, "Here, you take him, I'm going to sleep." And I did. I feel really bad though, because the whole night, I was irritated and angry with Shepherd for having to eat so much. I was also extremely exhausted (still am!). I know this gets better, but when? When does the baby sleep through the night? Or at least long enough so I can get some much needed rest?! I've tried coaxing him to sleep some more this morning, but he's in the most playful mood, wide eyed and awake. Anyways... I'll try to write a more uplifting post later, but for now... I'm going to go try not to fall asleep playing with my son.