Monday, March 13, 2006
You turn three weeks old today. I can't believe that time has gone by this fast. I look back, and the three weeks before you were born seem so much longer than the three weeks since then. You're growing up so fast. You are already in Size One diapers, outgrowing the newborn diapers that were so tiny and cute. Already, you're learning to focus on faces, and starting to track them. You watched Daddy for a long time last night, and we just sat there in amazement watching you learn. You also reach for things. Whenever you're in your swing, you watch the starfishes that hang from the swing, and occasionally will reach out and try to grab it. I never knew that these seemingly small things would mean so much to me.
You're getting better at sleeping at night, which is wonderful for both mommy and daddy. The only time you have trouble sleeping is when you have to be around people all day, or you're being held all day long. It's almost as if you need some quiet time to yourself during the day. This works out nicely for both of us. You're content to lie in your crib and coo at yourself and watch the cows and sheep that hang from your mobile, and that allows mommy some time to herself to do mommy things. People ask me if I miss my life before you... which is a loaded question (you'll learn more about these things when you get older). I loved my life before you, but my life is so much better with you in it. I wouldn't want life without you. The 2 am feedings, the poopy diapers, the endless screaming, all are worth it when you look at me when I pick you up, or the way you stop crying when you're in mommy's arms. I love all of these things about you... and I love YOU, so deeply that it's scary. I feel pain when you feel pain. I'm so sorry I bonked your head on the cabinets the other day after your bath... but you were a champ. You only cried for 30 seconds. I cried the entire afternoon. I would never hurt you, and to think that I caused you pain hurts me deeper than I've ever been hurt. All of this to say, I love you more than I've ever loved someone. Yes, I love your Daddy a whole lot, but the love I have for you is completely different. You've made me the happiest person in the world... and I look forward to watching you grow up. But please, don't grow up too fast...