Thursday, July 13, 2006
Last night, as mommy and daddy went to bed, we snuck in your room and peeked at you sleeping. We do this almost every night, but last night, you were stretched out on your belly with your arms tucked underneath you. For some reason it struck me as incredibly adorable. I wanted to pick you up and snuggle with you, but knew that doing so would wake you up. So, for my sanity, I let you be. Around 4:45am, you woke up ready to eat, so I went in your room, picked you up, and we sat in the rocking chair while you nursed. I held you close, and leaned over to kiss your head, and breathed in your smell. We sat there in the dark, and I held you close, and I wanted to remember that moment forever. A moment where it was just you and me, in the dark of your bedroom... a moment filled with tenderness and love. I started rocking gently, and your nursing slowed down, until exhausted and content, you let go and fell back into my arms asleep. I watched you for a moment, with your beautiful skin almost glowing in the moonlit room, and I was overwhelmed. I couldn't love you enough, I guess what I mean is that I couldn't show you how much love my heart has for you. So I gently lifted you to rest your head on my shoulder to make sure you didn't have to burp. As I did, you nuzzled your face into my neck, and we just sat there, rocking gently. And that moment was beautiful. So beautiful, that I could not put you back in your crib alone. So I walked back to our bedroom, and laid you between daddy and me, and the three of us snuggled until daddy had to leave for work. Shepherd, I hope you always know how much mommy and daddy love you. I know there will be times when we're angry, or frustrated... there will be times that are really hard... and during those times, I want ro remember last night, snuggling close, and I want to remember all of the love in that moment. I love you little man....SO much!!!